Updated: Feb 26
Originally written in 2018
In the summer of 2013, I had an experience that forever changed my perspective on life.
I was going to lunch on a regular weekday, when all of a sudden and out of nowhere, I was hit with the most intense feeling of overwhelm that I had ever felt. I began sobbing uncontrollably for what seemed like more than an hour. This reaction was so powerful that I had to stay in my car (who could eat lunch at that point?) in order to try and gather myself. Once I did, I drove myself home.
The feeling continued when I got home so I figured I would take a shower in order to relax a bit and shake off this strange and dramatic episode. Once I got in the shower, I ended up sobbing like a child once again and this time I really let loose.
I can remember feeling an undeniable feeling that THINGS WERE VERY VERY WRONG, that my life was not turning out the way it was supposed to. This feeling came accompanied by a thought that THINGS NEEDED TO CHANGE DRAMATICALLY.
Finally, feeling bewildered and exhausted, I resigned for the day and went to sleep.
I must say, this had to be one of the deepest, most restful sleeps I've ever experienced.
Now, I know that this may sound like a person that was really unhappy in his life and finally ended up breaking down.
The strange thing is that I can't tell you that I was particularly unhappy with my life. I was healthy, I had my family, I had love in my life, I had friends, I had a social life, I was beginning a new career. Opportunities were in sight and the future was bright.
That is what is so surprising about this experience. A regular person going about his day and then BAM!
Upon awakening, I had an equally powerful feeling of peace and tranquility running through my veins. I enjoyed every moment of this peaceful state and I figured that this had just been a strange (and rare) occurrence that caused me to feel cleansed and peaceful and I would just go along with my life.
Boy, was I wrong!
It took a few days to fully recover from the intensity of this experience but once I did, I noticed that the powerful feelings of peace and clarity of mind did not go away. All of a sudden, everything in my life made sense and I mean everything!
Of course, I don't mean that all of a sudden, I was able to solve difficult math equations or all of a sudden play the piano (I'm still pretty bad at both). No, I was the same person inside and out, yet I understood that something was slightly different.
I understood at a very deep level many of my life's experiences, my relationships, and my accomplishments and my mistakes.
I clearly understood my dreams, aspirations, and motivations and how all of these fit together in order to live my life the way it was meant to be lived.
I had a visceral feeling that there was something more out there for me; something much better than what I had allowed in my life up to that point. That there really was a higher calling a "true calling" if you will.
Most importantly, I understood what I had to do and the direction I had to take. THE MESSAGE WAS CLEAR!
This new knowledge provided me with the deepest sense of peace and tranquility. I guess once you know where you need to go the only concern would be HOW SOON you can begin the journey.
I spent the next few years in deep introspection, re-learning my life's lessons. I began to see past and present events from a whole new perspective and spent much of my time and energy writing down and dissecting many areas of my life.
I used my newfound insights as a guide and have ended up with hundreds of journal entries about emotions, thoughts, and actions around topics such as relationships, communication, career, values, love, purpose, and more. Basically, I began to figure out what the meaning of life was for me.
I used this my new level of clarity and created my own personal rules for living an enriched life and then, I basically pressed the reset button to dramatically change how I experience this thing called life.
Among many other things, I can proudly state that at this point:
I am in constantly awe with the beauty that is life
I have cleansed my life of unhealthy, toxic relationships
I am excited and fulfilled with my chosen line of work
I am inspired and appreciative daily
I feel a deep connection and love with the universe
I have a deep feeling of respect for people that I come across
I am at peace and in love with what life has to offer
I am living based on my most important values
It is now 2018 (5 years later and I'm still gleaming from the original event) and I have to tell you that the journey is nowhere near complete. In fact, I believe this is just the beginning.
I now have a deepened and improved relationship with my intuition which helps guide me on a daily basis and I feel a deep responsibility to help others lead more enriched and fulfilled lives.
My goal is to spread hope and joy to those that would accept it into their lives.
I share my story, not in an attempt to to brag, but in an attempt to share with others that it is possible to make changes and live a more fulfilled and enriched life.
If this is something that you are looking to do, stay connected!!!
Thanks for reading and WELCOME!